Seriously, if you're still reading this junk by now, you must really be a glutton for punishment. Pity party of 1 please? I've decided that I have until Monday to be cranky and then I must stop.
Addie and Bethany had another good day at daycare today. So far, no real issues I can see with this new daycare provider. In fact, Addie seems excited to go over there each day. Today when I arrived they were about to go for a walk, or so thought Addie! They both seem to be doing just fine... unlike mommy.
Last week I had to work an overnight shift and it actually wasn't that bad. I worked that day, came home and napped, worked the shift, and went home to sleep again. Well it turns out that I must work overnight again. This time, however, the kiddos are here with me instead of in KC, and I get no nap before going in for the shift. I'm having someone come stay at the house with the girls while they sleep and I work, and then I'll come home to take them to daycare, and get to sleep. Soooo who's taking bets I either fall asleep standing up or completely freak out on someone. I mean it's only 26.5 straight hours of being awake. People do this all the time. The guys on Deadliest Catch do it all the time. Military personnel do it too. And even doctors do it! I think I'll survive, but I'm not going down without at least a small (or large) amount of complaining first.
I seriously don't think I'll be able to keep this puppy either. He just keeps peeing everywhere, and I can't deal with it any longer. I don't have the money to fence him in outside, and he'd bark the whole time even if I did (which I'm sure the neighbors would love), and I can't keep leaving him in his kennel as much as I have been. It's not fair to him or me. He's adorable and exactly the type of dog Erik wanted to get, but like everything in our lives, it's always at the wrong time.
Oh yes! I found the tv remote today! At least there's one positive to having to clean up for a guest to come here tonight.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Day 2
Day 2 of being alone. Today started off in a hurry as I overslept. How one manages to turn off 3 alarms and still find a way to get back to sleep, I'll never know. I was having dreams about what I think Twilight? Who knows as I've never seen or read it. But apparently my mind just made up its own version of how the story should go. It was a real page turner in my brain, as I was not able to pull myself out of the dream. We only showed up at Heather's (new daycare) 10-15 minutes after I said we'd be there.
My stress level at work is kind of high lately. I am short 2 managers as I never replaced the first one that was promoted, and now am trying to train people on the go. With Erik's departure and now another employee's guard duty taking her away for weeks, I'm really struggling with the scheduling. I know it will improve, but something's got to give. I have no one who's willing to pick up any slack, and with a tight daycare schedule, it's almost impossible for me to put in any extra hours currently. Oh how I wish I had family nearby... again.
This evening was a bit trying with the girls too. It's hot and I'm tired. Both of their naps were very short compared to normal and you could tell they were tired. This dog is getting on my last freaking nerve. He's still pissing everywhere and I'm sick of it. What helpful advice do I get from my charming husband? "You're just going to have to take him out more babe." Says the man who's only been gone 2 days and already doesn't understand. This was our choice and I'm to blame as much as he, but I can already tell I'll end up resenting him somewhat for this move. It's a bad feeling, but what other choice do we have? We want to live the life we want to live, and the only way to do that is to actually make money and continue down the path to becoming debt free.
I was able to squeeze in another 20 minute workout tonight. My muscles were aching all day from the one on Sunday evening, so I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, but I can't wait for next week. I'm going to try to track this as best I can with pictures and such, but I'm too chicken to post the before shots until I know I've got some results to put them up against. I even got Addie to do a few minutes of the program with me... that is a show I'll tell ya.
Oh ya and the remote has been MIA for 2.5 days now. No where to be found. Please send help!
My stress level at work is kind of high lately. I am short 2 managers as I never replaced the first one that was promoted, and now am trying to train people on the go. With Erik's departure and now another employee's guard duty taking her away for weeks, I'm really struggling with the scheduling. I know it will improve, but something's got to give. I have no one who's willing to pick up any slack, and with a tight daycare schedule, it's almost impossible for me to put in any extra hours currently. Oh how I wish I had family nearby... again.
This evening was a bit trying with the girls too. It's hot and I'm tired. Both of their naps were very short compared to normal and you could tell they were tired. This dog is getting on my last freaking nerve. He's still pissing everywhere and I'm sick of it. What helpful advice do I get from my charming husband? "You're just going to have to take him out more babe." Says the man who's only been gone 2 days and already doesn't understand. This was our choice and I'm to blame as much as he, but I can already tell I'll end up resenting him somewhat for this move. It's a bad feeling, but what other choice do we have? We want to live the life we want to live, and the only way to do that is to actually make money and continue down the path to becoming debt free.
I was able to squeeze in another 20 minute workout tonight. My muscles were aching all day from the one on Sunday evening, so I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, but I can't wait for next week. I'm going to try to track this as best I can with pictures and such, but I'm too chicken to post the before shots until I know I've got some results to put them up against. I even got Addie to do a few minutes of the program with me... that is a show I'll tell ya.
Oh ya and the remote has been MIA for 2.5 days now. No where to be found. Please send help!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Time to get in shape
Today is the day I take control of my life. Erik left today for an indefinite amount of time. Could be 2 months, could be 12. We're expecting about 5-6 months, but that remains to be seen.
The past week has been long and tiring. I left last Sunday to take the girls to my mom's house for the week. My sister had a beautiful baby boy, James Kyle Roy, on Monday, July 26th, at 10:07pm via c-section. He's perfect (even for a boy!). I left Tuesday afternoon to drive back to Iowa. Worked Wednesday and Thursday morning, went home slept, worked Thursday overnight, went home slept, worked Friday evening, went home slept, got up and drove to Kansas City again to pick the girls up. I stayed at my mom's last night and this morning we were out the door by 9:45 am (pretty early departure time for us). We raced home so that Erik and the girls could spend time together one more time before he left.
After getting Erik all packed up we all said our goodbyes, with a big ol' group hug (at Addie's demand). Watching him pull away was sad and I think I could've fallen into sadness pretty easily, but I've got a lot to do to prepare for the girls' first day at daycare tomorrow.
I did, however, make time for my first day of exercising. I'm making a change and it's starting today. I want to get in better shape, not lose control of my body, and feel better about myself. I think that having Erik gone is a great time to do this. It will be hard, but man what a surprise it will be to look good and feel great when he returns to us. I'm hoping to keep this us and I'm depending on my friends and family to keep me going. At work I'm considering telling everyone to yell at me if they see me eating junk food. At home, I'm going to ask my mom ask if I've worked out each day.
I just did my first set of Jillian Micheals' 30 Day Shred and oh man did it kick my ass! I can do that everyday. 20 minutes is not that hard to fit in (even while yelling at the kids and the dog and the cat to stop fighting with one another).
Today's the day I start fresh. Here's to hoping I stick to it.
The past week has been long and tiring. I left last Sunday to take the girls to my mom's house for the week. My sister had a beautiful baby boy, James Kyle Roy, on Monday, July 26th, at 10:07pm via c-section. He's perfect (even for a boy!). I left Tuesday afternoon to drive back to Iowa. Worked Wednesday and Thursday morning, went home slept, worked Thursday overnight, went home slept, worked Friday evening, went home slept, got up and drove to Kansas City again to pick the girls up. I stayed at my mom's last night and this morning we were out the door by 9:45 am (pretty early departure time for us). We raced home so that Erik and the girls could spend time together one more time before he left.
After getting Erik all packed up we all said our goodbyes, with a big ol' group hug (at Addie's demand). Watching him pull away was sad and I think I could've fallen into sadness pretty easily, but I've got a lot to do to prepare for the girls' first day at daycare tomorrow.
I did, however, make time for my first day of exercising. I'm making a change and it's starting today. I want to get in better shape, not lose control of my body, and feel better about myself. I think that having Erik gone is a great time to do this. It will be hard, but man what a surprise it will be to look good and feel great when he returns to us. I'm hoping to keep this us and I'm depending on my friends and family to keep me going. At work I'm considering telling everyone to yell at me if they see me eating junk food. At home, I'm going to ask my mom ask if I've worked out each day.
I just did my first set of Jillian Micheals' 30 Day Shred and oh man did it kick my ass! I can do that everyday. 20 minutes is not that hard to fit in (even while yelling at the kids and the dog and the cat to stop fighting with one another).
Today's the day I start fresh. Here's to hoping I stick to it.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
My Little Photographer
Tonight Addie got to use the camera for the very fist time. I thought I'd share with the world her first photojournalism piece titled "Around Addie's House". Each picture below was taken by Addie all by herself of whatever she wanted to take pictures of.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
First Haircut
Addie got her first haircut finally. After dealing with the "wild lion's mane" as we all call it, we decided it was time to try and control that crazy hair. So while on vacation in Ohio visiting Grandma Karol and Grandpa Scott, we took the plunge and got her first hair cut at the ripe ol' age of 3 years 2 months.
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Hocking Hills
We visited Hocking Hills with Grandma Karol today. It was a bit of a drive to get there, but nothing compared to the never ending two day drive to Ohio. The drive was pretty scenic though and I was very surprised at just how hilly Ohio really is. It's very picturesque in many places.
Having the girls with us, Karol opted to take us to Ash Cave, as it has a paved path all the way to the cave. She borrowed a stroller from a co-worker to go along with the one I brought and we walked the quarter mile or so back to the cave together. It was pretty funny though, as we could've stopped about 50 feet from the parking lot and spent the whole time there. There was a wooden bridge that went over a tiny stream and the girls were completely content to stand there and throw rocks, sticks, and dirt off of the bridge into the water. A two hour drive to throw rocks into the water... I don't think so!!
We urged the girls onward and finally made it after quite a few more rock throwing pauses. The cave was much bigger than what I had pictured. In fact, I'm pretty sure I read it was the biggest one in Ohio.
Having the girls with us, Karol opted to take us to Ash Cave, as it has a paved path all the way to the cave. She borrowed a stroller from a co-worker to go along with the one I brought and we walked the quarter mile or so back to the cave together. It was pretty funny though, as we could've stopped about 50 feet from the parking lot and spent the whole time there. There was a wooden bridge that went over a tiny stream and the girls were completely content to stand there and throw rocks, sticks, and dirt off of the bridge into the water. A two hour drive to throw rocks into the water... I don't think so!!
We urged the girls onward and finally made it after quite a few more rock throwing pauses. The cave was much bigger than what I had pictured. In fact, I'm pretty sure I read it was the biggest one in Ohio.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
That makes me so sad...
I assume I should be happy that my nearly 3 year old child is learning to express her feelings verbally instead of with screaming and crying, but hearing your child tell you several times a day "That makes me so sad" gets a bit old. Not to mention the times she now tells us that she does not love us when she's mad. No cookies for lunch? That makes her so sad. No sitting on the back of the couch? That makes her so sad. No sitting on my lap while I type on the computer? That makes her so sad.
Addie's way of describing not only feelings but everyday happenings is pretty cute though. When the sun comes up it's "happy outside". When she needs to brush her teeth "her teeth are so sad". When she gets a mint or altoid her "mouth is pretty". When it's foggy outside it's "very, very foggy outside". Ok that last one was not anything cute, but the way she says it is!
Bethany, on the other hand, is learning to vocalize her wants and needs and things she finds in the house too. Although most things she says comes out sounding like "ssssssss" or "shssshhh" it amazingly works out pretty well for her. She can get across "cat" "cheese" "this" "ears" "eyes" and "hair" all with some variation of the "ssss" sounds she makes. It's not really talking, but it's getting there.
Addie's way of describing not only feelings but everyday happenings is pretty cute though. When the sun comes up it's "happy outside". When she needs to brush her teeth "her teeth are so sad". When she gets a mint or altoid her "mouth is pretty". When it's foggy outside it's "very, very foggy outside". Ok that last one was not anything cute, but the way she says it is!
Bethany, on the other hand, is learning to vocalize her wants and needs and things she finds in the house too. Although most things she says comes out sounding like "ssssssss" or "shssshhh" it amazingly works out pretty well for her. She can get across "cat" "cheese" "this" "ears" "eyes" and "hair" all with some variation of the "ssss" sounds she makes. It's not really talking, but it's getting there.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Making Curtains
So after looking at my dining room window/sliding glass door for the past 3 years or so with disgusting vertical blinds on it, I finally decided to take matters into my own hands and make myself some new curtains.
This is the eyesore that we (and everyone driving by on our extremely busy street) have been looking at for a few years now.
And this is my finished product. It's in no way perfect, but I'd venture to say it's a huge improvement over what we had before.
This is the eyesore that we (and everyone driving by on our extremely busy street) have been looking at for a few years now.
And this is my finished product. It's in no way perfect, but I'd venture to say it's a huge improvement over what we had before.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
All coming together
So it's all starting to come together at work for me now. This week I've been doing less cleaning and more counting and sorting. I'm starting to feel like the place is more mine than someone else's, which is really nice. I'm thinking that within the next 5 days or so I'll have it all up to speed, then I'll only have to worry about doing the daily work and getting the computer to order the correct things.
My supervisor stopped by today to help out with the ice/snow build-up outside. He seems great so far. I really like how laid back he is and his willingness to get dirty if need be. He also gave me a few compliments, which of course gave me some more confidence in what I'm doing.
At home we've been talking non-stop about Addie's impending 3rd birthday. She doesn't know exactly how far out it is, but she knows that she'll be 3 very soon. It's weird though, because she's been going through a bit of a regression of sorts lately. She really wants to treated like a baby a lot, insisting she's a "big girl baby". I think a little bit of jealously is starting to sink in about Bethany and the past 4 months have been just crazy for her. In and out of daycare, back home with dad all day long, and now I'm gone even longer than before. Unfortunately (in Erik's mind) she has gotten into the habit of sleeping with me every night too. While Erik was out of town for work, I really liked cuddling up with her in bed and falling asleep. But now we've started a trend that is proving to be very hard to break. I really have no inclination to stop her from sleeping with me, but I know that it really irks Erik, so I'm trying to find a happy medium. I know that as we move closer and closer to Erik getting his job back, I'll be sleeping a lot alone and will have absolutely no qualms about allowing Addie in bed with me. But sometimes I catch myself second guessing and thinking that it's not a good idea. Either way, I think there are pros and cons to it and we'll just have to play it by ear.
I've also started tentatively planning a vacation to Ohio this spring. I've never been to Ohio and we've been promising to come and visit Erik's mom for a while now. I'm tired of every year saying "maybe next year". So I'm just going to do it, that's it! I'm really looking into taking a train ride there, but am nervous about the cost and how the girls will do. Either way it will be rough on them. A 13+ hour drive in the car, or a 18+ hour journey on the trains. At least on the trains we can get up and walk around and I can focus on the girls. I'll let you know when we get closer to the date what we intend on doing.
My supervisor stopped by today to help out with the ice/snow build-up outside. He seems great so far. I really like how laid back he is and his willingness to get dirty if need be. He also gave me a few compliments, which of course gave me some more confidence in what I'm doing.
At home we've been talking non-stop about Addie's impending 3rd birthday. She doesn't know exactly how far out it is, but she knows that she'll be 3 very soon. It's weird though, because she's been going through a bit of a regression of sorts lately. She really wants to treated like a baby a lot, insisting she's a "big girl baby". I think a little bit of jealously is starting to sink in about Bethany and the past 4 months have been just crazy for her. In and out of daycare, back home with dad all day long, and now I'm gone even longer than before. Unfortunately (in Erik's mind) she has gotten into the habit of sleeping with me every night too. While Erik was out of town for work, I really liked cuddling up with her in bed and falling asleep. But now we've started a trend that is proving to be very hard to break. I really have no inclination to stop her from sleeping with me, but I know that it really irks Erik, so I'm trying to find a happy medium. I know that as we move closer and closer to Erik getting his job back, I'll be sleeping a lot alone and will have absolutely no qualms about allowing Addie in bed with me. But sometimes I catch myself second guessing and thinking that it's not a good idea. Either way, I think there are pros and cons to it and we'll just have to play it by ear.
I've also started tentatively planning a vacation to Ohio this spring. I've never been to Ohio and we've been promising to come and visit Erik's mom for a while now. I'm tired of every year saying "maybe next year". So I'm just going to do it, that's it! I'm really looking into taking a train ride there, but am nervous about the cost and how the girls will do. Either way it will be rough on them. A 13+ hour drive in the car, or a 18+ hour journey on the trains. At least on the trains we can get up and walk around and I can focus on the girls. I'll let you know when we get closer to the date what we intend on doing.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Socks, Socks, Socks!
That's it! I've given up completely on the sock situation in this household. I have bought 25 pairs of socks that the girls will share. They are all the exact same kind and same size. There will be no more searching and digging and matching and folding of socks for me in this house. I cannot stand the number of socks that we have.. half of which do not have a match. The little bitty baby socks that no longer fit anyone, the cutesy little socks with a pink stripe, the pretty little socks with lace... all gone! In the TRASH!
I held out for a very long time, thinking "ok ok I'll save them for my cousin". Then I figured "Ooh, I'll save them for my sister". But now I've realized I'd actually just rather spend the money on buy them new socks myself than trying to pass of some old, mismatching socks from hell.
Goodbye sock hell! Hello to sock heaven!!!
I held out for a very long time, thinking "ok ok I'll save them for my cousin". Then I figured "Ooh, I'll save them for my sister". But now I've realized I'd actually just rather spend the money on buy them new socks myself than trying to pass of some old, mismatching socks from hell.
Goodbye sock hell! Hello to sock heaven!!!
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